Its been a while but I think about you every day. I hung your garden gloves in the shed today. This way you can be with me. The hardest thing is needing to call you and catching myself. Everything has changed. I guess life never turns out the way you think. We should have been going through this together. I just wish you would call and say you were coming up to see us this weekend. Please give dad a big hug for me. I know he is happy oma got her gator. I guess its good that he is so close to home. Its still very hard to go see him. They say in time the sadness goes away. I am still waiting.
/ Roxy
i cant even watch sex and the city anymore and its all your fault! everytime i see carrie and big i think of you and jim. when he calls her kid i die! i still cant believe this happened. why to us? Close
Not the same / Cuz ~. (Cuz)
I just want you both to know that it will never be the same I don't care what Oma says. Things are differnt already. You both were a part of what made Oma. You kept things in check and it all seems to be spinning out of control. I miss you both more then I can write in this box. Hugs and kisses. Close
/ Roxy (baby)
its been 6 months. its just not fair. i see all my friends talk to their moms and wanna cry then i see them yell at their moms and take them for granted and i wanna scream. your my best friend. i think about you everyday and now im all alone and no one at my school understands... i dont even get to see my sisters now. i miss you so much. hopefully the next six months are easier. Close
Ok first time I can write to you with the music on and I didnt start balling. We have had so much going on sister just didnt want you to think we were not thinking of you. Opa back in the hospital and pete in recovery. Oma has got to be one of the strongest woman I have ever met. She is something else. We all have power and opa might come home tomorrow. Rox is so far away I sure do miss her. Its so strange to go to the hospital and not see you there with dad. or pete. Nobody has really come to see opa. the girls came a couple of times I guess they are busy. Heidi and donny have come every day. they have been so good helping oma and opa. So besides mom and me thats about it. Oh sorry Jr came a couple times too but he has been busy cleaning up the house after the storm. And he has been so helpful driving mom to the house so I dont have to drive up there and get her. He really has been a trooper. Ok the debate is on. I hart you baby. I hate to say it but opa is not gonna get better. We just have to try hard to keep him going.
happy birthday / Roxy (baby)
mom its not fair! noone here knows what im going through!! its your birthday... i had to go through the whole day by myself without anyone knowing how i feel. Robin gave me this really great poster with a momma and a baby elephant. she is such a good friend. i dont know what to do without you... you know your my best friend. i think about you everyday. i just wanna talk to you. i love you bunches. Close
ok baby pete is in bad shape. We need to look over him. I miss you so much. I dont have anyone that can relate to me. I am just so out of it. I miss you. The girls had their b-day with out you. I am missing you. HART YOU
im at school all by myself... i had to move in and get settled without you. my classes already started and i have no one to tell me to do my homework.. no one to tell me to go practice i miss you so much momma. i would give anything in the world to have you back. your my best friend.
gonna b ok / KAT (sister)
I know its gonna be ok and I know we will get through this. I can just see you saying baby its gonna b ok! So there. I know I will see you again I will just have to wait awhile. Mom got her new car and its beautiful. Rox came and spend the night with me. It was really nice. I made it through the B-day party. Dee is being so brave. You would be so proud of her. I hart you Close
mama. i miss you so much it hurts all the time... everything i see reminds me of you. every song sometimes when im by myself i cant even listen to the radio... i still cant listen to buckcherry "sorry" that was your ringtone you know. i feel bad because i know you would be mad that i am so sad all the time but i cant help it.... im selfish that way. your my best friend you know?? sometimes i can feel you with me but its not enough and doesnt happen often enough. it makes me so mad when i see my friends taking there moms for granted... i wanna scream.
P.S how about that game today? YUCK! the pony's are you freaking kidding me??!
Hey Women / Heidi ~. (Cuz)
Just want you to know I miss you like crazy. So many things going on in my life, sure could use your help with decisions like you have always done. Please try to let me know in your way if I am doing the right things. Please......... Donnie got him a new truck, he is so proud. Opa is not doing so good BP low water high. He told me yesterday he want to play golf, so when the weather changes Donnie is going to take him to chip at some balls. Donnie told me that he thinks Opa is going to sucker him and beat him bad. lol Oma is hard headed as always. Tells me not to and then she does. Sound like someone else I know LOL. Let me feel that you are around sometime. Miss you Close
hey mama. miss you like crazy... drove all the way to illinois for nationals... with two of the girls on our teams moms... that was super hard... BAD night last night. this is the last week of select softball.. i gotta leave for school in like 3 weeks. sure wish you could come with me and drop me off. oma and aunt heidi are buying my bed stuff :D they so nice love them bunches too. done working... so i got nothing but to visit family for two weeks...
hey/ Kat (seeeeeeeezter)
Everytime I get to this page I want to write you but I break down. Dam music gets me every time. The girls will be coming by to stay the night on the way to moms in August. I am really looking forward to it. Ally has a b-day coming up and D has moved into your old house. Its going to be really hard being there and not seeing you. I am sure D has it decorated all different so maybe that will make it easier. Dan I am sure will be there and that will help too. Everytime the girls send me a text message "hart you" my hart just sinks. I luv them sooooo much. What a big sis I am balling now with out the dam music. I am just so sad and I dont know how to shake it. Its not as hard when trucker is home cuz we are always busy. But Sat mornings its really quiet and like a dum ass first thing I do is go to see you. Well Pete and Christy came up last night to see mom and dad and they will be stopping by on there way home. It will be really nice to see them. Anna is getting so big. Wish they lived closer. I wanted to go see them and maybe take anna to the zoo but we have been so busy in the new house. We just now got the home phone hooked up. My washer and dryer are here but they are just taking up space cuz they are not connected yet. No big deal I have a really nice laundry mat 2 min from the house. Ok baby I have taken up enough of your time. I hope you like the curtains I picked out in the bedroom. "No flowers" Hart you like crazy
Hey forgot to ask you to say hello to my Auntie Barbara for me. She should be up there somewhere; she arrived July 2. Ask her if I did a good enough job?
My darling Kissle joined you as well on July 15th, he loves pig ears and doggie bones. Keep him close to you for me until I can be there again for him. He was 14 when he left me.....I hope he is running after all the toys again.
Cindy I just want you to know I regret not having a better relationship or just getting to know you better than I did. A lot has to do with the age gap and the fact I lived in another world in Arizona. We always say things happen for a reason and if nothing else I want you to know that I have a relationship with Kathy thats made me feel absolutly wonderful. And I have gotten to know more about you thru her. She truely misses you, she is really good people. Your leaving has left a gap that no one will be able to fill up, but I learned the hard way that I need to try harder to keep in touch with my family and keep relationships. Life is too short....unfortunatly I learned this a little to late for us but someday we will meet again, so have the coffee ready we have a lot of catching up to do. Your girls are absoultly beatiful you did a good job. I hope I can do as good as you did.....but now your not around for advise....I missed my oportunity.
This song made me think of you, Cindy's family. I hope you all find peace and comfort in knowing that you will spend eternity together.
Words do not do your hearts much good but I pray for your strength and comfort every day.
I love you all!
Artist: Monk & Neagle
Song: “Dancing with the Angels”
Memories surround me, But sadness has found me. I’d do anything for more time. Never before has someone meant more, And I can’t get you out of my mind.
There is so much that I don’t understand, But I know…
You’re dancing with the angels, Walking in new life. You’re dancing with the angels. Heaven fills your eyes Now that you’re dancing with the angels.
You had love for your family, Love for all people, Love for the Father, and Son. Your heart will be heard In your unspoken words Through generations to come.
There is so much that I don’t understand, But I know…
You’re dancing with the angels, Walking in new life. You’re dancing with the angels. Heaven fills your eyes Now that you’re dancing with the angels.
We’re only here for such a short time So I’m gonna’ stand up, shout out, And sing Hallelujah. One day I’ll see you again…
Tips & Tricks / Heidi ~. (Cuz)
You always told me that we would share our tips and tricks to make things easier. I need some tips to get over the agonzing pain I feel when i relize you are not here for me to pick up the phone and have a bitch session with. Missing you bad today. Close
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